The first day of holidays, and I’m going back to school.
You see, being a full time stay-at-home-mum I have oodles of spare time, so I thought I’d fill it with study.
That’s a lie. I have no time. But I am going to study.
It’s a little daunting though. Not too long ago I declared myself done with study. I’m a truly awful student, and I don’t want a “career” anyway. I’m content being a stay at home mum. If I’m going to work, I want to own my own time.
I’m no stranger to study by any means. I’m just really, really bad at it! I bombed out in year twelve; mostly due to mental health issues, though to be honest I hardly applied myself the whole way through school. I had dreams of being a journalist or social worker, but with a terrible VCE score, those options disappeared.
So I went to TAFE to study event management. I actually loved most of it, but it wasn’t for me. It gave me good understanding of organising events and a tiny bit of business knowledge, so I’m thankful for that. I started trying out for the diploma, but many mental health problems and a surprise pregnancy later, I quit – attaining my cert III. After some time off, with a one year old in tow I started a small course in community services. Which led me to apply for a cert IV in youth work. I adore youth work. That course truly lit a fire in me and taught me so much about people and the need for compassion. I had an amazing teacher that inspired me daily, and met some incredible people through the course. I was a participant in the local council’s Youth Leadership Program and learned so much of my abilities if I applied myself. I ran a girls group at an alternative school. I applied for my diploma via distance. And then I gave up.
It was circumstantial more than anything. I was newly married, just had Smasher and living in my parents shed while we saved up for a mortgage. I still love the idea of youth work, but being a full time stay at home parent, it seems a pretty distant plan right now. I figure there are other ways I could contribute to community rather than a career. I could do some volunteer work at the roots. It doesn’t all have to be paid employment.
That’s the story so far. Recently I’ve been writing more, and recieved great encouragement for doing so. Which is super lovely, thank you friends! Writing is something I have always loved, and it’s known to be my strength. I remember meeting a guy in high school whose mum happened to be my English teacher the year before and he said to me “I’ve heard about you, mum said you should never stop writing”. It was a weird and surprising moment, and it’s played in the back of my mind ever since.
So it’s time for the next chapter. Today I enrolled in a Professional Writing and Editing course online. I’m really excited to dig in. I’m going to have to learn an awful lot of self-discipline, and up my time-management skills – but it’s going to be worth it.
That being said , I best get to it!